My monologue within angry waves

Jesus calmed the storm when everyone else started to freak out on the boat. They saw reality, Jesus slept. The waves grew. Jesus slept. Ever feel this way? “What in the world, Lord? Do you not see the waves? Hey, Jesus…anytime now, buddy! I’m literally going to drown here! Do you not see the giant waves? This boat won’t stand a chance! Wake up! See my pain! Wake up! I-AM-GOING-TO-DIE. Save me, save us.”

Ever feel this way? Your brain does not shut down. The pain increases, the world begins to shrink all around you. The waters start to rise, but this time, the waters are angrier than you’ve ever seen them. “What am I going to do?” The monologue continues. A monologue within you, a monologue outside of you. A one direction conversation that does not stop. You are in your body; you are outside of your body. You see it from your shoes; you see it from the neighbor’s shoes.

You are looking at these scary waves, and you just know that if you sit there long enough, you will fall into the water. Then what’s next? “Oh, I know next! The expanse of the sea? Following Jesus means falling into the expanse of the sea? Uh yeah…nope. That’s it! Listen, Jesus, I can’t swim okay! Jesus, you know that I can’t swim. If you know that I can’t swim, Lord, then why are you sleeping so soundly while I S.O.S! I see my reality, it is not pretty!” You know this amazing God, yet He isn’t coming to save you. Even worse…why is he sleeping? Why is this God so peaceful while you struggle?

Mark 4:37-41: “A furious squall came up, and the waves broke over the boat, so that it was nearly swamped. Jesus was in the stern, sleeping on a cushion. The disciples woke him and said to him,’Teacher, don’t you care if we drown?’ He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, ‘Quiet! Be still!’ Then the wind died down and it was completely calm. He said to his disciples, ‘Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?’ They were terrified and asked each other, ‘Who is this? Even the wind and the waves obey him!'”

This is not an oversimplification of your life struggles. This is not me stating that you should just ‘trust in God’ and move on. This is not me asking you to shove down deep inside your cares. As a matter of fact, all the way around…give Christ your cares. Give Him your storms. I know that while we continue to see the reality of the storms, Jesus patiently continues to ask: “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?”

The promise has never been to make all the storms go away. Our God’s promises go beyond life on this Earth. Yet, we are called to value and live our lives with gratitude. Life is precious. Life is a gift; regardless of how bad things get. Regardless of how cruel the world may be (and remember: you are part of this world so that would include you). How many storms have you already faced? How many had a lifelong impact in your life? How many were exaggerated by you? How many were truly raging storms? Yet, how many of these storms empowered you to give home.

I pray that you see the beauty in the storm; and that you will perhaps see the power of these as you go and make disciples.

“Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?”

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