There is a moment when you feel that God is not listening to you, that He does not see you. You have this issue, yet God has completely forgotten about you. He has better stuff to do.
There’s famine in the world,
children working as prostitutes,
families without clean water,
pain and suffering that is MORE IMPORTANT THAN YOUR ISSUE!
WHO CARES ABOUT YOUR UNEMPLOYMENT OR YOUR OTHER MINIMAL PROBLEMS!?
But He does. There is enough God for you. Do not try to limit where unlimited power exists. Unlimited power will prevail and your thoughts about misery cannot stop it. You are probably thinking ‘easy for you to say! You don’t know what I’m going through!’
You are right; I have zero clue about what you are going through. I have been deeply depressed and suicidal before. I have seen death, and been in situations where I felt I would never get out alive. I wondered many times why God didn’t just let me die. I am reminded of Jeremiah when he, in his sadness and depression cried out:
Jeremiah 20:14-15 (ESV)
14 Cursed be the day
on which I was born!
The day when my mother bore me,
let it not be blessed!
15 Cursed be the man who brought the news to my father,
“A son is born to you,”
making him very glad.
God wanted you to see that you are not alone; suffering is part of the life journey. Additionally, there is ENOUGH GOD FOR ALL OF US. Your issue IS IMPORTANT to your SAVIOR. It would be easier to recover from a bodily wound than to recover from what goes on in your brain. For who can get in there? Who can stop the pain in your heart? No one. Yet the Bible says that
1 Samuel 16:7 (NIV)
7 But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.”
There is one that can look in there; if He can look in there…He can help you fix it. You are not a baby; therefore, I suspect that you would prefer to know ‘why’ things are happening rather than just get what you want with no reasoning behind it. You are not a puppy looking for the immediate gratification of a treat, or a robot that only processes the data that it can capture and release. Understanding and clarity are such important things to help you stand up and know the ‘why’ behind situations. And please understand that you will not get an explanation about everything. Yet having an honest talk with God will help you.
Is there an area where things are going all wrong for you? Stuff that you just wonder ‘why is this not working out?’ or ‘I’ve tried everything, but it feels like God doesn’t see me/listen to me.’ You can ask the Lord directly about it. Prayer is NOT complicated–all you need is faith no bigger than a mustard seed (Luke 17:6). You can ask without the expectation that God is going to fix all this stuff for you and things are going to be better since you ‘asked’ Him and not your closest buddy. Clarity/wisdom, to me, are more important than ‘getting’ what I want without understanding first why things are happening (although when I was a child, I thought like a child, acted like a child…you get the point. That’s not me today). It’s like this, do you want your child to do what you say and OBEY you NOW? Or do you want your child to understand what you say, and why you say it? That kid is not a robot, but you aren’t either! THINK and just ask “why is this happening, Lord?” This morning, I’m praying for understanding and NOT FOR ‘getting things right so that everything will work out.’ King David asked the Lord ‘why.’ With that clarity, King David was able to take appropriate action.