“From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than I.” Psalm 61:2
One of the hardest parts of dealing with disappointment and abandonment is accepting that God is still good. We endure situations that require the spiritual endurance necessary to take the blows of the enemy. Trust me, the enemy knows that we were made to be in communion with the Lord–he is afraid of that beautiful seed of love the our Lord placed in each one of our hearts. This enemy waits for those moments in which our faith is challenged–creeps up in corners, and even grows bold enough to show himself so that we may be scared. Satan is a bully in our weakness. Those are the weak points of life where we may not be emotionally, physically, or spiritually strong enough to withstand the battle.
Today, I am one that is holding tight to the rock that is higher than I. That rock is truly all that I have right now. These are times of uncertainty in my family. I have all sorts of feelings running through me that, if I allow it, they will drown me into a pit of despair. Are you in a pit of despair right now? Are you in a place that is so dark, lonely, and surrounded with a desperation that can only be overcome by God himself?
I will not get too technical here; this message is simplistic. The reason is that I am praising God through one of the biggest storms in my life. Writing is one of the many ways in which I can praise Jesus. In this pain, I fight the battle. I am pulling the pain that has been inflicted from the inside. Beauty for ashes. This praise sprouts out in the shape of love for the Savior that never forgets me. It is all too easy to forget Jesus and curse the day that I was born, yet that is not something that can bring me comfort. Lord, I respect your quietness. Please give me the stamina to withstand this silence, because even in this quiet moment you still see me.
I hope, and pray that I can praise Jesus in my desperation. The uncertainty hurts; however, I am certain of the One who rescued me and loved me.
-THE ROCK THAT IS HIGHER THAN I-